I may write more about it later on, but for now, I want to remember two things:
1. Phone dates feel like real dates and to me, sexting counts as real sex.
2. The night of the Cuddle Party, I had a piece of advice from one of the presenters written on my hand. It said:
"Believe your own perceptions more than what he's telling you."
I think this is the first time I've ever pulled that off. I'm proud today of being honest with myself about what I want and letting him be honest about what he can give. Rainbow star of sad achievement: